true love never ever ends

Sunday, February 28, 2010 @ 12:45 PM

so sweet (x100)
:D

anyway, i am so in a confusion state.
i like BB and Iphone!
but then, haha, thinking i am in a state of financial constraint right now, because of the IT fair next month, i think i shall just wait and see.
after all my current phone is only one year! :(

tomorrow's Monday!
got two interviews.
oh well.
and tomorrow the ...
aiyah, forget it..

everyone, enjoy the Sunday!
:)

Friday, February 26, 2010 @ 12:14 AM

i think i will have nervous breakdown later..
just hope that everything will be okay!
the products and services i just briefly read through because there's just too many.
just pray for me..

on Wednesday night, i slept very early at about 11plus because i am dead tired.
apparently my complexion become more worst and even worse this few weeks after CNY with all the goodies and all the late night sleeping and all the stress..

i felt worse on Wednesday morning again.
but better yesterday.
but now, i am nervous about later "interview"
particularly my "vomit" show..
HAHA.

somehow, i wonder when will all this thing end?
it's like never ever ending issues that everyone had to deal with..
you don't have a certain things/aspect in life, you will just feel somehow left out.
those who agree with me will lack 2 elements in life right now just like me because that's what causing all the sad sad nicks alone that i have seen..
some of them is 1..
if you know what i mean, then good for you.
if you don't, then never mind.
HAHA.

and i have received 4 different groups of friends email regards to travelling overseas.
but problem many many for me that i never reply to all..
i doubt i can go ahead with the Taiwan Trip in April because i don't know how i'm going to find the money (though is enough) and can get leave (that is if i am a temp, i think it should be okay, but if i really find a perm job, than what am i going to do if i can't get leave?) and all of us are doing last minute booking so i think it will be more expensive, July the 2 groups plan sounded super interesting, but but but, if i am really going to the 2 groups trip, i think i can just declare bankrupt (kidding), but i am quite untouchable in July because of my sister 21st birthday. Up till now, i seriously got no idea she's going to celebrate in which weekend. first week or second week, and then the leave part again. August (the week before national day) is to BKK with my secondary school mates, but they need to buy the ticket this week which i really cannot confirm (leave again).
OUCH. i so super badly wanted to go oversea but why just seem so difficult? :(

okay, i know this is sort of random/naggy post.
ignore me.
i think i shall try to calm myself down by trying to go and bath again..

good night world!
:)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010 @ 12:14 AM

i have exactly 5 rubbish drafted post after last Friday..
but i already deleted it. HAHA..

last week everyone was still in CNY mood.
but not for me anymore after i see more and more sad nicks over msn as well as on FB..
even those who didn't log into FB for long leads me/some people to know their well kept secret..

people i am close to were down..
and some more things choose to happen over the festive period, dampen the mood..
as for me, i was super down after last Wednesday.
and worst, i choose the wrong day to cry, which makes my eyes super swollen the next day, but yup, it's definitely getting better after i cry out but i still don't wish to say what happen..
i can get easily upset by the same thing again, but i still wouldn't show that i am upset.
Pasir Ris Park really do wonders to me..

anyway, Friday was dinner after work at the Hawker near Chomp Chomp with Cloud, Weiyi, Yee Soon & Leechin.. Yee Soon is going back to Australia this Saturday, and Weiyi brought her DSLR along. wanted to go to the 一碗甜品 for dessert, but then, who knows its still close for CNY until this week i suppose so, so we went to another one.. cab home with LC since she need to work the next day, and i was super tired at the same time..

Saturday was an impromptu meet up with Peiyin. Early in the morning, i woke up or rather when i am online at 11am plus, she talked to me over MSN since she appear offline, and she ask me whether i am going out, i say no and no one to go out with and no one wants to go out, and since she's going out for dental appointment till about 2pm, she ask want to go out, so both of us decide to meet up at Bugis at 3.15pm.
but i am late, because my cousin, cousin-in-law and nephews came over to my house and bai nian, but they came at 2.15pm like that, and i feel too pai seh to rush off after they gave me ang pow, so i stayed until 2.45 then i rush out, and they don't even know i go out, except my mom and my cousin, because i told them i am going out while they were in the Kitchen, the rest were chatting away in the living room, and my brother and sister were playing PSP away with my nephews.. so you can imagine how noisy it can be..
we went for lunch (rather is me having lunch, pei have bubble tea), and we chatted away about *content censored* HAHA .. and thanks to her too, because it makes me feel alright after chatting too.. glad that everyone is feeling better! :) didn't know what movie to watch, both of us to TOPONE KTV.. so both of us sang till 8pm then to dinner, then home sweet home..

Sunday went to Joo Chiat and pray to Tai Sui since those born in Tiger 犯太岁. Super crowded with people, and went to Downtown after dad drop us and bought my lunch back.. Went to Orchard and meet up with the rest of the girls again. Daisy, Weiyi, Cloud & soon-to-be MIA Jane (gosh, long time never see her already!). Ate at TCC, and i went to pick up some stuff from my friend and then went home and just knock off on bed during the evening time.. At night is 拜天公 at home. apparently, the one living at the First floor opposite my block is more grand. you should see the Sugar Cane they bought. HAHA..

glad everyone is getting happier and better!
me too.
this week is going to be a better week for everyone!

till then!
i need to sleep!
:)

oh did i mention, i love the Korean song in my playlist. :P

Friday, February 19, 2010 @ 12:03 AM

i saw this in a forum..

得不到的　总以为最美好
走过的　总觉得是错误

regret.
everyone do experience it in their life..

i like to ignore/just do not wish to know/run away/live in my own world..
and that's why i always regret in the end..
since when did one can keep on digging non-stop..
creating such powerful energy to keep it linger on one mind..
when was the last time it happen the same way. when?
i just feel numb by what i always choose to do.
when i really start to wake up, then you realise you have already lose it..

life is funny, ain't it?

i am okay.
just feel kind of tired of my mundane life already..
that's why i need to grumble..

so fast.
the 3 days of working this week is going to end later.
and next week is back to the 5 full days of working.
:(
time flies..

will enjoy myself with my friends for "reunion" later at Chomp Chomp.

i want to go River Ang Pow.
who wants to come with me?
:)

and hope my friends who's down this week will be happier soon too!
let everyday be a more happier day for everyone!
:)

good night!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010 @ 11:02 PM

think i am too busy during CNY 2010 this time round.
busy eating, busy gambling, busy playing with the kids.
until i realise i didn't take any pictures.

GOSH, i should be very enthu about taking photos le.
but but i really didn't take any single pictures this year (except one in my handphone of the poker cards that we were playing -.- )
somemore its MY YEAR (i need to wait another 12 years for tiger year again lehhhh)
:(

booooo-ness.

anyway, i was really really upset after work today. not with work, but with myself.
that i still feel like crying now and then.
but it's okay.
i am fine already!
i guess i am immune to it..
i guess i am such a l-o-s-e-r

"where are you the one?"
why do i need to lose, then i start to regret?

Tuesday, February 16, 2010 @ 11:55 PM

spent 3 hours in the library today to do the 20 MCQs questions.
i think we guess we were quite lucky to get 17 correct. HAHA. considering that i have forgotten all my econs and have passed back to those lecturer who have taught me =X, but lucky the notes & text gave most of the answers away, except the Calculation part, which make us stuck..

in the late afternoon, i mean quite late at about 2.30pm, we left the library, and i went to meet my cousin, nieces and nephew at WhiteSands Kopitiam, had lunch, and we left at about 3 plus..

Reason being: they were lost, apparently they took bus 39 from Yishun from where they stayed (usually they come to my house on day 1 of CNY, but they went back Malaysia so they came today instead, and my cousin-in-law would drive them usually, but he's not free today), so they alight at the wrong stop just because they follow my mom INSTRUCTION on where to alight. my gosh, i can't stop myself from laughing because its just way too funny. My mom told them to alight after they see the bridge or rather the bridge with the river or what.. so because bus 39 which came from Yishun will stop by Elias Road there first, before coming to Drive 6, and there too have a bridge with the river. so they alight there at Elias Road, and hence they walk from block 520 there to Whitesands.. HAHA. my mom should have told them to alight 2 stops after seeing the MRT tracks, and only when they pass by the Pasir Ris Town Park, then they should alight.. LOL..

so the 5 of us, walked back to home under the super hot weather after lunch. actually i thought i reach home from Library, i could sleep, but since there's visitors i couldn't. that after they left at about 5pm, i actually slept for a while because i am just so tired (slept at 4am, 3am, 2am for the past 3 days), but the weather is really hot, that i sweat and kept on sweating till i bath for like don't know how many times in total today..

at night, my brother friend's came over to our house.. i guess 3 days of Holidays just flew by like that.. *ouch*, it seems like i have not played enough or rather gambled enough. HAHA. another cousin might be coming over during the weekend though..

last but not least.
i saw this from a blog..

A Mother's Journey

touching, tragic story.
left tears dropping down my eyes..

mama & papa, i promise i will be a good daughter to you both..
i promise i will change my wildness and stubbornness and my selfishness..

back to work tomorrow.
oh well..
:(

*and i do miss*

Monday, February 15, 2010 @ 7:30 PM

just back home from my cousin house!

well. i guess this is the down luck chinese new year i ever had.

1) for the eve, the shorts i bought to sleep was wrong size. i got myself a size UK 8, but then, i can fit in but really really lose lah that i fold the shorts while going out to pray on the first day of new year at midnight. my sister gave me wrong info, she told me, her shorts is size 6, but she didn't tell me, she bought size 6 still need to wear BELT. anyway, next time i wear that shorts out, i definitely have to wear my belt..

2) i wore contact lens yesterday.. then my left eye was super irritated, i don't know is it i put the wrong side of it or what, but its really irritated as if the eye lashes have drop into the eye and when my cousin talk to me, my left eye is super teary until he ask me what happen.. >.<.. then i went to take out my contact lens, then i feel better. today, i wore it again, then the same thing happen again. its not only irritated, i blink the tears can just flow it out so i decide to just switch the side of it, and hurray, its okay already! i have wore it for more than 8 hours already! :)

3) the zip of the dress, gosh, i got a hard time to undress and dress myself in the morning and night. when i wore the dress, the zip seems okay, but then, when i want to undress it, the zip is like spoilt until i was thinking should i just cut away the dress so i can undress myself. but luckily the best thing is the zip finally work, and i can take off the dress with ease..

Reunion dinner starts at 6pm, and end at 8pm.. i was stuffing myself with prawns, scallops, fish, wanton, chicken wings that i was super full..
bath, watch countdown, get ang pow from daddy and mommy, and went to pray at Joo Chiat at about 12.45am. bought Fei Fei Wanton mee back home (sinful). dad and mom went to Loyang then, while me and bro went home first, sister was at friend house MJ-ing away and didn't went along with us to pray.. and we happily slept at 4am plus after watching tv and online away..

so chu yi was as usual to paternal side at Bukit Panjang at my cousin house where my oldest aunt is, and gosh, there's 6 tigers (including me) in all if i remember when we calculate. and then it was back to Pasir Ris to my cousin house..steamboat & BBQ away at the top of the penthouse where i could still caught sight of the airport control tower albeit before Livia condo would block the view away (i sippose).. cab home (its still the same area) with mom since bro is not feeling well, having fever (but couldn't eat panadol because he's allergy to it since young)..

today went to maternal side. went to MacPherson, then to Bedok. everyone gather over at Bedok for feast of food like Shark fin and everything. played with my nieces and nephews there, and slack..

well, can't believe its over like this. tomorrow is the last day of holiday and then its back to school and work for most people except my sister and brother who will be having their study week/exams this week..

and as usual, the normal, routine questions being asked, "are you still studying?", "what course are you studying?", "are you working now?", "do you have a boyfriend?", "when are you getting married?", "when are you going to have kids?".. and the questions goes on and on and being repeated by different people and you repeat your answer, until you realise you have answer it since young from "are you still studying?" and "what course/what are you studying?", so when you grow older, you get different questions along the way..
same goes for my friends because they just can't stand the same questions being repeated by different people on the same day (its really too depressing already). sighh.
especially if you can have a 16 year old nephew (yes, its my nephew), who bring his girlfriend along, you will be thinking what is wrong with you eh? HAHA. depressing right?

and i hope i can help my friend with her 20 MCQs Econs online quiz tomorrow at 10.30am.. i hope the Library would not be pack, but on safer side, i think meet at 10.30am at Whitesands Library is safer as in can find place and plug and whatsoever.. hope i can and know how to do the 20 MCQs.. *pray*

and
i don't want to go back to work on Wednesday.. :(

till then..

Sunday, February 14, 2010 @ 10:55 AM

Happy Chinese New Year/Happy Tiger Year *roars*
&
Happy Valentine's Day to all..
and Happy Birthday to Jinq! :)

*sleepy*
i slept at 4am this morning after going out to pray at Joo Chiat and came home and watch TV..

going to bath and go out soon!

*hopes vanished somehow*

Saturday, February 13, 2010 @ 11:30 AM

有时候，你觉得你已经把所有的事给忘掉的时候。
原来，事实上你根本就没有。

i have been fooled all along by my own thinking..
seriously..
sighh.
it seems such an easy task, but why its just so difficult to me..
:(

reached home at 1.05am today morning after dinner while waiting for bus 81 at Serangoon bus stop.(thank cy and ryan for fetching me to Serangoon)
but the freaking bus just wouldn't come, but i didn't miss the bus either because the last bus is at 0031, finally it came, but it creeps along the way at a freaking slow speed.
that i slept all the way till it reaches Pasir ris, but its only at the first stop of Pasir Ris when it arrives.
goshh, i really feel like knowing what speed the bus is travelling at..
reach home and fell asleep immediately.

seriously, working have make you no life.
i don't have Chinese new year mood at all or whatsoever festive season mood.
its like.. nothing seem fun. because everyday make no difference to me lahh.
i can't imagine if i find a full time job, whether i can adjust to the new working environment, or whether i can get along with the people, whether i will be alone for lunch, whether i need to do OT and all sorts of funny thoughts just creep along the way..
yes, it just something that i thought of all along..

anyway, enjoy the Chinese New Year Festive Season. (yes, its the year of Tiger, actually is already according to 立春 or even if it is later after midnight, 1986 and tiger babies rocks, HAHA)
with all the good food, with all the gatherings, with all the fun and laughter.. :)

shall go down and buy some stuff for reunion dinner tonight as well as to buy lunch (but arghh, amost all the food stalls would be close by now, so it McDonald/KFC, or should i go Airport/Century Square and buy Popeye?)

till then!
:)

Tuesday, February 09, 2010 @ 11:48 PM

how to break away from all the fears?

headache after i step into vivo after work today.
vomit once after dinner.
think last minute shopping is not good to me.
but i have not gotten my bag yet.
its like i see a lot i like and feel like buying..
but the price.
the more i see, the more bags i want, and the prices seem to go uphill instead..
>.< never mind, i already make up my mind already to get what i want.

and worst i forgot to reply to my friend sms which she sent around 6plus.
how cool arh. i am figuring out how to reply her. but i am talking to her on msn but she's busy with her work..
anyway girl, remember the earth is round and not square.
the sun rise from the east, and never rise from the west..
therefore the world can never be fair to everyone..
so do the changes just to be fair to yourself for once..
i know you read my blog, hope you are feeling okay! :)

and i got to talk to a friend just now who was saying about meeting up next week.
and she say she's living a no life right now.
and i told her that i feel the same too right now..
but i guess, we just need to overcome this life crisis. HAHA

Autumn's Concerto is ending soon i think..
i want a good ending. :)

Sunday, February 07, 2010 @ 2:14 AM

i actually have drafted a post on the vivo shopping with my mom last Sunday (actually our purpose was to change something using the Credit Card)
i will post it when i have finish the post.

and..
i just want to get rid of the wall that have been building up..

back to video..

Friday, February 05, 2010 @ 10:43 AM

awww, JJ is seriously a very good friend..

no work today, because i am going TP career fair with my friends later.
and i am already thinking of what to have for lunch over there. :P
biz park, mensa, or design school canteen? HAHA. :)

good morning!
enjoy the weekends! :)

Wednesday, February 03, 2010 @ 11:02 PM

it was save as draft on Monday! but i decide to repost it..

its been a good weekend! :D

Saturday-
despite work in the Morning, after which i went to HarbourFront to wait for my friends (ting,daphne,wc and Sabrina) to arrive before going to Resort World Sentosa.. i slack at McDonald for like don't know how many hours before i really am going to fall asleep. :( but alright, the 5 of us proceed to there, and walk around. Victoria Secret is a must, but its smaller than eh a DFS in the airport, but still i feel like getting the 2 stuff i want from there, but didn't in the end. explore around, and took pictures, after which is to go to Chinatown for DIM SUM for Dinner at Yam Cha, but surprise we manage to squeeze through the crowd of people.
i will collate the pictures yeah..

Sunday- was staying at home, and still staying at home and become a pig because i slept through the afternoon for 2 hours, and waking up still tired.. either way, i still have not figure out how to clear my cupboard with my poly notes and uni notes either, and CNY eve is next week Saturday. gosh, its just like January is just yesterday, but now its already February, and i still have not settled lots of stuff.. :( and worst, lucky doesn't fall on me either. :( but oh well..

oh did i mention NEW WARDROBE arrived. for some of those who knew how previously my whole family of 5 squeeze all the working/going out/home clothes into one wardrobe which is in my parent's room. LOL, this is definitely a good news for me, though its to share it with my sister but i got my own space (like finally) to buy more dresses/clothes/shorts..

折叠式爱情-杨丞琳

一起在海边吹风忽然有流星划过
滚烫的手降落肩头
能强烈感觉胸口的震动

偶尔温柔的热络含有暗示的幽默
你想什黱我不太懂
只晓得期待越多越难过

你带著可以折叠的爱情
我在等不会变形的真心
被抱在你怀里却要提防你
爱要多聪明才能逃得过哭泣

走走停停的时钟深深浅浅的互动
你没有说一句爱我
却把我摆在爱的氛围中

你带著可以折叠的爱情
我在等不会变形的真心
被抱在你怀里却要提防你
爱要多聪明才能逃得过哭泣

你那种可以折叠的爱情
带给我夹著开心的伤心
有时候挣扎著陷落在泥泞
有时又忘了一切的飞行

这是幸福的等候或心酸的前奏
要放下太多的疑惑才能专心去快乐

你那种可以折叠的爱情
带给我夹著开心的伤心
有时候挣扎著陷落在泥泞
有时又忘了一切的飞行

面对你可以折叠的爱情
该要用什黱样子的表情
为什黱不能问不能更透明
想要保护自尊的爱藏著孤寂

okay!
good night! :)
i need to sleep soon..